Destination: BEAUTIFUL

I LOVE THE SUNSHINE AND WARM WEATHER!!!

it's a good 53 degrees here in Logan right now.. which means driving with the windows down and ditching the jacket.  It is getting me so excited for summer! I love not having to wear a jacket, and walking to school is so much happier:)

This summer is gonna be super different though!  No daycamp.. no illinois friends.. no living at home..

I'll be living in Clarksburg with Lindsey!  It will be fun, just different.  I realized that i do pretty well with change.. but at the same time i am horrible with it.  that doesn't make any sense really, i know.  I guess i just get bored with things super easy so i need change.. and i am used to having huge changes in my life with moving so much.  But after the change occurs... i seem to dwell on the past and miss the way things used to be. idk i am so super confusing sometimes!

i am so ready for vegas. like so ready. i just need a vacation, and i miss ashton so much! it will be warm, party-filled, usu basketballed, and stress free. :)

I get to see my mom and dad and brother in 3 days!  I miss them.

oh, darling, don't you ever grow up

Your little hands wrapped around my finger, and it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming, so I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you, everything's funny.  You got nothing to regret.  I'd give all I have, honey.  

If you could stay like that

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little, It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you.  Won't let no one break your heart.

no one will desert you.  Just try to never grow up, never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies, and you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14, there's just so much you can't do, and you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots

But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJs getting ready for school

No one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs

I just realized everything I have
Is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on

Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up

Oh, I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little, It could still be simple

This song makes me cry every time!! I seriously don't want to grow up anymore.  I feel like all my friends are getting in super serious relationships and graduating from college.. and all i want to do is turn 5 years old again.  It makes me so sad to think that the days of living with my family are over.  I miss having my dad come home from work, and coming home with my mom there always happy to see me.  I miss doing silly things with my brother and sister that we would think up when we're bored, and all we had was each other.  I get to go visit my mom and dad and brother in 2 weeks though, so that will be good:)